Traumatic choices!

They say, “If you can’t forget about it then it’s probably worth going after”.

I cannot forget about you.

I think of you every single day.

I think of you when I’m sad.

I think of you even more when I’m happy.

Wishing you were the first to know about my happiness.

I see you often in my dreams.

We share everything about us in my dreams.

With ease, like nothing has happened.

And I wake up with that empty feeling.

I tried my best to let you go.

Because I felt it was what you wanted at that time.

But my instincts makes me feel that I was the one who pushed you away.

I guess we’ll never know who is to be blamed.

You seem to be moving on well with your life.

But your eyes, oh those eyes! They tell me a different story.

I’d rather sit with you in silence for hours and feel great about it later

Than to mumble some niceties to one another like we’re some dumb strangers!

I just don’t know anymore what I want.

To let you go and rot with what Ifs

Or run to you and live in hell for my sins!